3 Days on my Own

Today was my husbands grandmothers birthday. We had a birthday party here at our house. I cleaned before the party, and then cleaned up after the party. My husband is leaving tomorrow on a business trip for 3 days and was packing while I cleaned up after the party. It still hasn't completely hit me that he is going to be gone. It is going to be so weird, the hardest part is going to be going to bed alone knowing that I will be alone all night. I will do fine though. I will miss him a lot!

Possibly PCOS

Sorry I haven't been on top of updating either blogs lately. We moved recently and are still trying to get the last few things where they go. 

Anyways, I went to the OBGYN again last week. I told him I am done taking the Provera because my symptoms are 3x worse then what my pms symptoms have ever been. I am way more grumpy and I get way depressed. 

I brought up the fact that the more I looked into it, the more I think I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS). So he recommended that I get an ultrasound and blood work done to see if I actually have it. I am getting both done today. I am both nervous and excited. Hopefully this will answer some questions to whats going on with my body. 

Rain, Rain

I don't know about you, but I LOVE laying in bed listening to it rain. It is just so relaxing.
I LOVE when all you can hear is the rain hitting the roof.
I LOVE the smell of rain.

Photo Credit Here

Blogging

Having two blogs is pretty hard to keep up with. First, It seems like I can never come up with anything to blog about. Second, once I do come up with something to blog about, which blog do I put it on? Third, is it going to offend anyone? Those are the three questions I ask myself every time I want to blog about something. What to actually blog about is the most hard for me.

Where or how do you guys get ideas to blog about? What questions, if any, do you guys ask yourself?

Hoping to Get in Shape

Today I started my third week in a row working out. I have to admit it's been hard, but I do it anyways. I am so completely done with not liking my body. I have cut my sugar intake in half for now. I am working on cutting it completely out. Cutting sugar out is going to be harder then actually working out. Heck, I may never do it.

What do you guys do to stay fit?

Snowflakes Are Falling From The Sky

I am loving the weather right now. It is lightly snowing outside and has been for most the day. It is weird to me to think that I actually like it, because usually I hate snow what so ever. I think it has something to do with the fact that it's not actually sticking to the ground. It is just making everything wet. It is just making me happy sitting here looking out the window.

Google Analytics

So, a couple months ago I heard about Google analytics. It is a free program that tracks your sites. You just have embed the code. Anyways, I had it all set up. It was tracking everything ... until I re-did both this blog and Jason & Briana. I had gone to Google analytics wondering how many people were visiting now compared to before, and every time it would say zero. I was surprised but it didn't occur to me until last night that after I had re-done the blogs I forgot to re-embed the code. I don't know how I forgot to do that again, but I did. I fixed it and hopefully now there will be more then zero people visiting my blogs.

It's Nice Just to Take a Moment

Some nights I just love to light candles and listen to music.

It's soo relaxing!

Beautiful

Jason: This year: Vacation to Hawaii with my beautiful wife, New job with a nice raise, bought a big truck and a newer car.

Sometimes it is really the little things that count. Jason just posted this via Twitter. He called me beautiful and I seriously just started crying. He is so sweet. God, I love him soo freaking much.

P.S. Yes, I have been overly emotional lately ... hense the crying.

P...M...S...??

I really don't understand how I have been feeling lately. I am soo grumpy. It's like I am PMSing, just without the period. I feel so bad for Jason, he has been getting the brunt of a lot of it. I am sorry honey!

I keep almost dreading taking Provera next month, just because if my hormones are already arigh, I really don't know how I am going to feel.

I am sorry if I seem overly grumpy lately.

Doctor Appt. Update

I thought I might update, since it's been a little while since I last wrote.

The dentist went well, and even after I had gotten my tooth fixed, it did still hurt for a little afterward. All is good now with my tooth. I will get food stuck in every now and then and that seems to be the only thing that irritates it.

I went back to the doctor on the 2nd for basically a check up on all my tests and if I had got my period at all. All my tests had come back normal and I had got my period. All that made me feel really good. It is really weird still that everything is normal, except for me not having my period like I should.

The doctor said that you cannot be considered infertile until you have technically tried for a year. Which made me feel a billion times better then the last time I went. He said that my age is in my favor, but even with all that, that I still might have a hard time having children. When Jason and I do decide to start trying, I will have to go see the doctor again, so that he can put me on some kind hormone. I don't remember the name.

He gave me the choice to either go on birth control or take Provera every 2 months. Jason and I had already talked about birth control and we don't want to go that route. So I chose the Provera. Anyways, because the doctor is still unsure of me even being infertile, he said I need to take a pregnancy test before taking my Provera.

As weird as this sounds, I am soo relieved and hopeful that I might have a chance of having kids.

D is for Dentist

My dentist appointment went well. If you call getting your sore tooth drilled on fun. I know it sounds counter-productive, but I knew that getting it drilled on would help in the long run. They said it might be to high. They asked me if it was too high, and I said I didn't know, I just knew it hurt.

I also couldn't remember the day I came in to get it done. I got it done on October 19th. More then a month ago. Can you believe that I have waited that long? Granted I thought the pain would go away after a couple of days of getting it done, and even then the pain wasn't that bad. The pain really didn't get that bad until the last week or so. That is why I ended up calling them Friday.

Anyways, I got to grind my tooth on something, then they would drill. They did it like 3 times and then sent me on my way. It didn't cost me anything. My tooth feels better, I just hope it stays that way.

Gosh!

I don't understand why my tooth is still hurting. I went into the dentist a couple of weeks ago to get it fixed and it still hasn't stopped hurting. This is seriously the longest time that a tooth has ever hurt for me. I called the dentist today and they were going to get me in today, but I didn't have the car. I did however get an appointment for first thing Monday morning. Hopefully they can fix whatever is wrong.

Then on Wednesday, the day before Thanksgiving I have to go back to the dentist for my check-up/cleaning. How fun, huh? I am hoping that I don't have anything else wrong, because I really don't want to have to go back in. Crossing my fingers!

Behind on Housework

I am sitting here waiting for Sasha to show up, and all I can think about is the housework. I absolutely hate when I get behind on housework. It seems like there is always something that needs to be done around the house.

Mondays, I usually sit down in front of the tv watching some of my tv shows, whilst doing the laundry. But this last Monday, we ended up going over to a friends house for dinner and games. I was beyond furious that my schedule had been messed up. I got over it, but it has just messed with my whole week. I have still not finished the laundry, and there are still a million other things I need to get done.

Do you ever get behind on the housework? Does it bug you, if you do? How did you get back on track?

Finally Here!

Last night before I went to bed, I started my period. Last night it was very light and looked kind of brownish, reddish. So I put a pad on.

Well, I woke up this morning to cramps. I went to the bathroom and It was full on red. Hallelujah!!

I am so happy that those pills worked. I was getting worried that it might not work.

Update

I thought I would let you know where I am at.

I filled my prescription on Halloween and started taking them immediately when we got home that night. So far, I haven't felt any major change in my hormones. I haven't been any more crabby or emotional. I just feel like me. If that makes sense. Oh wait, I have been having hot flashes, but that is all.

I will take my last pill on the 9th and hopefully start my period on the following days. I am hoping that all goes well and that when my period does come it isn't to heavy.

Dr. Appointment

I finally had my long awaited doctors appointment today. Going into it I wasn't really that worried about it. I was more just relieved that I was at the doctors and that soon enough I would have a better understanding of what is going on.

This was the first time that I had ever been to this doctor. Knowing it was a guy instead of a girl this time kind of freaked me out at first, but I quickly got over it.

He came into talk to me about my concern about not having my period for the last 8+ months. He said that it wasn't good and then started listing all the things that could possibly be causing it. When he was telling me everything, I was okay, I was fine. He suggested that I start taking a hormone pill. I would take it for 10 days and then basically my body would withdrawal from the pill and then I should have a period. If that doesn't work, I would then be put on birth control to help regulate my period. He also said that when I want to start having kids that it could take me a while to get pregnant.

I had my yearly done.

Then he came in with the prescription for the hormone pill and another paper to take over to the hospital to get a blood test done.

As soon as I left the doctors office I immediately went over to the hospital to get the blood test done. That is the first time I have ever gotten my blood drawn. I wasn't as freaked out about it as I thought I would. I even looked right at the needle when the guy put it in. I don't think I could do it every time though.

As soon as I walked out of the hospital, I started calling people. Well, only my mom & Jason. I called my mom and told her what had happened. I did really good staying calm. I called Jason, only to get out a couple of words before starting to cry. He comforted me and made me feel a little better. I wanted to tell Karen about everything so I went over to her house and only got out a couple of words before I started crying again.

I know it might sound stupid, but even the chance that I could have a hard time getting pregnant or not even be able to have kids makes me so sad. I have always wanted to be a mom and experiencing the pregnancy is part of that. Before I get all down in the gloom...Nothing is set in stone. I haven't started pills yet. Test results aren't back.

I am hoping that everything is going to fine.

Tomorrow

Tomorrow I finally am going to the doctor to find out what is wrong with me. I am really curious how everything will go tomorrow. Anyways, I will keep you updated.

Working Late

I am exhausted for the day. I am getting to that part of the night where I could just fall asleep peacefully.

Anyways, tonight I came to Jason's work to hang out with him as he worked late. He is almost done. I was sitting here just thinking, "Awesome he is almost done then we can go home and go to sleep...and I don't have to drive home."

Oh duh! Yes I do.

Let's just say it made me wake up a little.

PJ's

I love wearing pj's all day!